Over the last couple of days I realized that I’ve been feeling a sense of fear and anxiety about my Nick Drake Project.
Not about the outcome – I know that the music we make will be incredible.
Not about the process of making the music – the musicians involved are all dear friends who are excited about and committed to the project, and I know that we’ll have a wonderful time rehearsing and recording the music.
My fear is about the process of funding the project – more specifically, asking you for your support.
My last blog post was about whether or not to use Kickstarter as a platform to help me raise funds for the project. I’ve been going back and forth about it, and I think that my main fear about Kickstarter is the all-or-nothing nature of their campaigns. I’d have to set a monetary goal for the project, and if I don’t reach that goal, the project isn’t funded at all (“backers”, as Kickstarter calls them, make pledges of support and are only charged if the project reaches it’s funding goal). This makes me very nervous!
But thanks to the advice and counsel of my lovely wife and a few close friends I’ve gained a new perspective on this. While it’s scary to set a goal and open myself up to the possibility of not reaching that goal, I have confidence both in myself and in my friends, family and fans. I know that we’re going to make an amazing record, and I know that I have people who love and support me and will do whatever they can to help me succeed. What an amazing revelation that is!
So on November 15th I am going to launch a Kickstarter campaign to help raise the needed funds to record, mix and master the New Jason Parker Quartet CD, “Five Leaves Left: A Jazz Tribute to Nick Drake”. The campaign will run for 30 days, the goal will be high, and we will achieve that goal!
There. I said it. 😉
Moving from Fear to Courage
As an artist, moving forward is almost always about facing one fear or another. Every time we put pen to paper or brush to canvas or mouthpiece to lips it’s an act of courage. We progress by looking that fear in the eye and shouting “you are no match for me!” This is how we get past the fear and to the act of creation.
Similarly, it’s often uncomfortable asking for help. It can make us feel needy or slimy or selfish. But I know that asking for help is a big part of life and also necessary to move forward as an artist and a human being. We all need help at one point or another. I think it comes down to how and why we ask.
So here’s my pledge to you: Throughout this project I will be asking for your support. It won’t always be financial, sometimes it’ll be in the form of spreading the word or brainstorming ideas. But no matter what, I will ask with a sense gratitude, authenticity and love. And I will also try to give you something in return.
This wasn’t an easy post to write. It made me face up to my fears and find a way to be OK sharing them. Thankfully, I have an amazing support system in you. You give me supreme confidence when staring down my fears and anxieties. THANK YOU!
Maybe you’re facing down one fear or another right now too? If so, look to your support system to help you through. If you need some outside assistance, watch this wonderful video from Pema Chodron: